domingo, 31 de outubro de 2010

Caribean Nights

She appeared in a foggy day
And we built our love in a nasty way
She was surprised by the landscape
A dirty mirror could reflect a dream one had when one was safe
There's still some work to do
An unlit love needs a hut for two
It would be such a waste to make us wait

For the disdainful eye of fate ain't really something one should trust
I am in doubt that in this world there is a place where people can just find who they deserve

She appeared in a sunny day
And we built our love in a gentle way
The past has a bitter taste
Let's dive our bodies in a sea of lit up souls and fool us again
Can you feel me when I'm out of sight?
When I'm struggling not to fall behind
For all that came at last is just a hopeless quest

For the disdainful eye of fate ain't really something one should trust
I am in doubt that in this world there is a place where people can just find who they deserve


holger

terça-feira, 26 de outubro de 2010

The Genius of the Crowd

Charles Bukowski

there is enough treachery, hatred violence absurdity in the average
human being to supply any given army on any given day

and the best at murder are those who preach against it
and the best at hate are those who preach love
and the best at war finally are those who preach peace

those who preach god, need god
those who preach peace do not have peace
those who preach peace do not have love

beware the preachers
beware the knowers
beware those who are always reading books
beware those who either detest poverty
or are proud of it

beware those quick to praise
for they need praise in return

beware those who are quick to censor
they are afraid of what they do not know

beware those who seek constant crowds for
they are nothing alone

beware the average man the average woman
beware their love, their love is average
seeks average

but there is genius in their hatred
there is enough genius in their hatred to kill you
to kill anybody

not wanting solitude
not understanding solitude
they will attempt to destroy anything
that differs from their own

not being able to create art
they will not understand art
they will consider their failure as creators
only as a failure of the world

not being able to love fully
they will believe your love incomplete
and then they will hate you
and their hatred will be perfect

like a shining diamond
like a knife
like a mountain
like a tiger
like hemlock

their finest art

segunda-feira, 25 de outubro de 2010

for my last lover boy

I'm singing songs about the future
Wondering where you are
I could call you on the telephone
But do I really want to know?
You're making love now to the lady down the road
No I don't, I don't want to know

domingo, 24 de outubro de 2010

Even cowgirls get the blues

I haven't seen Sandy
and Johnny, or Mary
I heard they got married
Mighta had a couple babies
And traded their memories
For fairview and makers
And never play no pinball
Or get up pass the breakers

But not me, pretty baby
I still love Tom Petty songs
And driving old men crazy
So you sing me slow songs
And I'll drive you crazy
Tonight

Yeah

But all I want is you
to be alright and satisfied
Brothers and sisters know
that anytime or let it die
If you call I will answer,
I'm open ears though tired eyes
But the world closed it's arms on us now

Can I get a witness pretty baby
I still love Tom Petty songs
And driving old men crazy
And all while little lita
is waiting
So you sing me a slow song
And I'll drive you crazy
Tonight

There's a party tonight,
say it's alright
Tell your poppa you'll be home
when the good feeling dies


my love

Don't wait too long to come home.
We have the years of our youth passed on.
Don't wait too long to come home.
I'll leave the front light on.
The night is our own, come home.

sábado, 23 de outubro de 2010

l.

quero voltar a sofrer por amor e nao por essa necessidade boba de ter alguém por perto.

quarta-feira, 20 de outubro de 2010

segunda-feira, 18 de outubro de 2010

how to be alone

If you are at first lonely, be patient.

If you’ve not been alone much, or if when you were, you weren’t okay with it, then just wait. You’ll find it’s fine to be alone once you’re embracing it.

We can start with the acceptable places, the bathroom, the coffee shop, the library, where you can stall and read the paper, where you can get your caffeine fix and sit and stay there. Where you can browse the stacks and smell the books; you’re not supposed to talk much anyway so it’s safe there.

There is also the gym, if you’re shy, you can hang out with yourself and mirrors, you can put headphones in.

Then there’s public transportation, because we all gotta go places.

And there’s prayer and mediation, no one will think less if your hanging with your breath seeking peace and salvation.

Start simple. Things you may have previously avoided based on your avoid being alone principles.

The lunch counter, where you will be surrounded by “chow downers”, employees who only have an hour and their spouses work across town, and they, like you, will be alone.

Resist the urge to hang out with your cell phone.

When you are comfortable with “eat lunch and run”, take yourself out for dinner; a restaurant with linen and Silverware. You’re no less an intriguing a person when you are eating solo desert and cleaning the whip cream from the dish with your finger. In fact, some people at full tables will wish they were where you were.

Go to the movies. Where it’s dark and soothing, alone in your seat amidst a fleeting community.

And then take yourself out dancing, to a club where no one knows you, stand on the outside of the floor until the lights convince you more and more and the music shows you. Dance like no one’s watching because they’re probably not. And if they are, assume it is with best human intentions. The way bodies move genuinely to beats, is after-all, gorgeous and affecting. Dance until you’re sweating. And beads of perspiration remind you of life’s best things. Down your back, like a book of blessings.

Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. Go to an unfamiliar city, roam the streets, they are always statues to talk to, and benches made for sitting gives strangers a shared existence if only for a minute, and these moments can be so uplifting and the conversation you get in by sitting alone on benches, might of never happened had you not been there by yourself.

Society is afraid of alone though. Like lonely hearts are wasting away in basements. Like people must have problems if after awhile nobody is dating them.

But lonely is a freedom that breathes easy and weightless, and lonely is healing if you make it.

You can stand swathed by groups and mobs or hands with your partner, look both further and farther in the endless quest for company.

But no one is in your head. And by the time you translate your thoughts an essence of them maybe lost or perhaps it is just kept. Perhaps in the interest of loving oneself, perhaps all those “sappy slogans” from pre-school over to high school groaning, we’re tokens for holding the lonely at bay.

Cause if you’re happy in your head, then solitude is blessed, and alone is okay.

It’s okay if no one believes like you, all experiences unique, no one has the same synapses, can’t think like you, for this be relived, keeps things interesting, life’s magic things in reach, and it doesn’t mean you aren’t connected, and the community is not present, just take the perspective you get from being one person in one head and feel the effects of it.

Take silence and respect it.

If you have an art that needs a practice, stop neglecting it, if your family doesn’t get you or a religious sect is not meant for you, don’t obsess about it.

You could be in an instant surrounded if you need it.

If your heart is bleeding, make the best of it.

There is heat in freezing, be a testament.

domingo, 17 de outubro de 2010

love love love

it’s 4 am
The paperboy’s at it again
But i can’t get no sleep
I mean what’s the point?
If i can’t even dream up a dream
That’s worth the keep

And so there’s no need in even going
Cause i’m better off never knowing
You know the media’s getting
Really good at lying
And this time around
I’m not buying

Cause this life is a beautiful one
And though i seen it comin undone
I know most definitely
That it’s gonna be you
It’s gonna be me
So baby keep your head up
Keep it on the up and up
Cause you got all my…
Love love love

Cause we’re all just lovers and takers
Breaking hearts to make the papers
She wants love i told her to stop trying
Cause the reasons for her tears
Aren’t worth crying

And this life is a beautiful one
And though i seen it comin undone
Well i know most definitely
That it’s gonna be you
It’s gonna be me
So baby keep your head up
Keep it on the up and up
Cause you got all my
Love love love

Loving all around me
I think that love has found me
Loving all the time

And when the summer’s here
The waves are crashing
No time for thinking
Don’t even ask me
I’m gonna let it all roll right past me
Cause when i’m here
I’m always happy

And this life is a beautiful one
And though i seen it comin undone
Well i know most definitely
It always works out the way it’s meant to be
So baby keep your head up
Keep it on the up and up
And know that you got all my
Love love love

quinta-feira, 14 de outubro de 2010