Dying

there's a moment
in every man's life
when you stop worrying
about every single problem
and start facing life
with softer eyes.
there's a moment when
you stop drinking
to solve problems
and start spending your money
on worthy things.
There's a moment when every living soul
stop taking risks
and start dying.
I'm really sorry if it happened to you.

23h46

Ela estava sozinha em casa.
Era quase madrugada e tudo que ela tinha era um cigarro.
Ficou encarando-o esperando a vontade chegar.
Dormiu sem fumar.

23h59

chegou em casa quase que no dia seguinte e tirou os sapatos antes de deitar.
os pés estavam gelados.
o teto girava conforme a musica tocava nas caixas de som.
estava ouvindo bruce springsteen e agradecendo por estar vivo.

sometimes

sometimes
it hurts you so
bad you just
can't feel it anymore
sometimes
the feeling is so strong
you can't face it
sometimes
we just need
to let it
die

answers that never arrive

I sit by the window and listen to the rain
come down
and I think about why we
do these things

we sit with our elbows on these
brick walls,
talking
bickering
lamenting the passing of our youth,
and what it means to be
young.

we write letters to Santa Claus
tell him about how
we’ve been good
we should get presents
waiting for answers that never arrive.

we spend our days and nights
drinking
screwing
screaming our heads off
and all it ever really does
is make my stomach
hurt

BUKOWSKI

mourning

there's nothing
to mourn about
despite being
all alone
with your own
demons.

as I drink alone
again tonight
my soul despite all the past
agony
thanks all the gods
who were not
there
for me
then.

C.B.