Love lost is still love. It takes a different form, that’s all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn’t.

envelhecer

O doutor disse que ando bebendo demais, mas ainda não sei se devo acreditar.
Nunca fui muito de acreditar em veredictos de doutores, de nenhuma espécie - doutores em pessoas, em animais, em livros.
Esses dias sai aqui na cidade, pra dar uma volta, como de costume faço há anos. Os pedregulhos são os mesmo desde que me conheço por gente, e nunca nem cogitaram a possibilidade de tira-los dali. Uma vez tropecei num dos grandes, no meio da praça.
Minha mulher também disse uma vez que ando bebendo demais, mas o fato de eu não conseguir colocar o fio na agulha por causa das minhas mãos que não paravam de tremer não tem a ver com a bebida em si, mas com a minha idade avançada, que alem de fazer tremer as mãos, tirou um pouco da visão com o passar do tempo (tal qual também o olfato, o paladar, a vida).
Pela manhã costumo abrir a janela, lutando sempre para fazê-lo antes do sol estar forte demais, para não arderem os olhos. Geralmente com grande sucesso realizo essa gincana matinal. Tomo meu café e saio pelas ruas, tomando mais cuidado com os pedregulhos agora.
Certa vez seu Dorival disse que ando bebendo e apostando demais, mas quando se está velho, apostas são a única diversão. Um dia ganhei 100 reais no jogo do bicho, apostando no cavalo. Nunca apostei em cavalos de verdade.
A hora do almoço é um momento sagrado. Minha mulher e eu ficamos sozinhos depois que nossa filha cresceu, e hoje conversamos bastante enquanto ela prepara a comida. Depois tiro minha sesta, ela assiste tv. Não nos falamos até o fim do dia, na hora de dar boa noite, pois costumo sair de casa a tarde.
O doutor disse que ando bebendo demais, é verdade. Mas não quero acreditar-lhe.
Vou ao bar todos os dias, encho a cara, mas só porque já cansei de pensar demais na vida.
Não tem muito o que se fazer quando se está velho. Já viveu demais, já pensou demais, já morreu demais. Morrer mais um pouco e apostar nos cavalos não fazem muita diferença.

problems

It's hardly fair but that's the price you pay.

Or you could buy me something hard to drink

cause you know me...

And you know that I've got problems,

and you know that drinks wont solve them.
Everybody knows that we've got problems in our room...

maybe we should move.

I tried to put all of my faith in the hands of a man.

And when he failed me I cried out what gives with my plans?

It's always my plans.

When I said that it's all your fault,

it's funny I should place the fault at all.

It seems to me the fault is in our drinks

and the way I think...

When I know that you've got problems,

and I know that I can't solve them.

Everybody knows that we've got problems of our own...

we should let it go.

For every lie I told,

the promises you made and broke;

We laugh it off, and we let it go.

The Lord has my our separate parts

and joined them with forgiving hearts;

We laugh it off, and we let it go.

Forgive it all,

and we let it go.

arrah and the ferns

tashi delek

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queria ser uma pedra, não aspiro a mais, quero
Ser uma coisa que não possa ter vergonha nem desespero,
Fui rei nos meus sonhos, mas nem sonhos houve, além de mim,
E a ultima palavra que se escreve nos lvros é a palavra Fim.

"she has been dull, lead to nights reading beer bottles"

muito amor

and the boys

Well it's been days now
And you change your mind again
All the cracks in the walls reminds you of things we said
And i could tell you that i wont hurt you this time
But it's just safer to keep you in this heart of mine

And the boys go on and on and on and on
And the boys go on and on and on and on
And there's gold falling from the ceiling of this world
Falling from the heartbeat of this girl
Falling from the things we should have learned
Falling from the things we could have heard

Falling from the people that we heard
Falling from the love we never earned
Falling from the sky that should have burned
Falling from my heart

last leaf

If you should be the last Autumn leaf hanging from the tree
I'll still be here waiting on the breeze to bring you down to me
And if it takes forever
Forever it'll be
And if it takes forever
Forever it'll be
And if you should be the last seed in Spring to venture forth a leaf
I'll still be here waiting on the rain to warm your heart for me
And if it takes forever
Forever it'll be
And if it takes forever
Forever it'll be

im afraid of crazy ones dressed up like normal people.

anote

Your heart is like a flower as it grows,

And its the rain, not just the sun that helps it bloom.

And you don't know how it feels to be alive, until you know how it feels to die.

Take care.
With luv,

me

SUN SUN SUN

waiting

A coma might feel better than this,

attempting to discover where to begin.

You're weighed down, you're full of something.
Of sickness, and desertion.

You're weighed down, you're full of something,
you're underneath it all.

So say goodbye to love,

and hold your head up high.

There's no need to rush

we're all just waiting, waiting to die.

Hoping a better place is all I need,

with moments of innocence and mystery.

Oh, it's the little things you miss.

Like waking up all alone.

Oh, it's the little things you miss,

when you're underneath it all.

So say goodbye to love,

and hold your head up high.

There's no need to rush

we're all just waiting, waiting to die.

All your friends seem like enemies

when you're broken down and empty.

All your friends seem like enemies

when you're broken down and empty.

So say goodbye to love,

and hold your head up high.

There's no need to rush

we're all just waiting, waiting to die.

city&colour

Five Years Time

Oh well, in five years time we could be walking around a zoo

With the sun shining down over me and you

And there'll be love in the bodies of the elephants turning up

Put my hands over your eyes, but you peek through

And there'll be sun, sun, sun

All over our bodies

And sun, sun, sun

All down our necks

And there'll be sun, sun, sun

All over our faces

And sun, sun, sun

So what the heck?

'Cause I'll be laughing at all your silly little jokes

And we'll be laughing about how we used to smoke

All those stupid little ciggarettes and drink stupid wine

'Cause it was what we needed to have a good time

And it was fun, fun, fun

When we were drinking

It was fun, fun, fun

When we were drunk

And it was fun, fun, fun

When we were laughing

It was fun, fun, fun

Oh, it was fun

Oh well, I look at you and say: "it's the happiest I have ever been!"

And I'll say: "I no longer feel I have to be James Dean."

And she'll say: "yeah, well, I feel pretty happy too,

and I'm always pretty happy when I'm just kicking back with you."

And it will be love, love, love

All through our bodies

Love, love, love

All through our minds

And it'd be love, love, love

All over her face

And love, love, love

All over mine

And in the oddest moments and just scratching my head

I'll be thinking about families and lying in bed
Even though I believe it may not even come true

But in my mind I'm having a pretty good time with you

Oh, five years time

I might not know you

In five years time

We might not speak at all

In five years time

We might not get along

In five years time

You might just prove me wrong

Oh, there'll be love, love, love

Where ever you go

There'll be love, love, love

Where ever you go

There'll be love, love, love

Where ever you go

There'll be love, love, love

Where ever you go

Noah and the Whale

sete regras simples para viver escondido:

1. Nunca confie em um policial numa capa de chuva.

2. Cuidado com o entusiasmo e o amor, ambos são temporários e oscilam rapidamente.

3. Quando perguntado se você se importa com os problemas do mundo, olhe profundamente nos olhos daquele que pergunta. Ele não perguntará de novo.

4 e 5. Nunca dê seu nome verdadeiro e se lhe disserem para olhar pra você mesmo, nunca o faça.

6. Nunca diga ou faça nada que a pessoa parada diante de você não possa entender. E finalmente,

7. Nunca crie nada. Sua criação será mal interpretada, lhe acorrentará e seguirá pelo resta da sua vida. Nunca mudará.

dust bowl dance

Seal my heart and brake my pride

I have nowhere to stand and now nowhere to hide
Align my heart, my body, my mind

To face what I've done and do my time

18 anos, alcoolatra e professora de inglês.